26 september 2026 hi. first time in my life i feel like im free. despite not being free. i moved in with my family.
days go unhappy at times i see my family. i really feel fear of death. i don't want to die. i have a lot to live for. i have
a lot to fight for. i still truly don't know who i am yet. im following the traces. yet i fear death. i dont exactly fear that
i will die. all of us will die. i just got paranoid because i haven't lived yet. i love my boyfriend so much. i want to move in
with him. i want to do a lot of things with him. i want to travel with him. i want to go on a vacation with him. i want to
go hiking with him. i want to camp with him. i want to learn about botanics. i want to plant a lot of flowers. in our home.
i want to be an independent adult. i want to study psychology. i want to do everything on my wishlist. i want to buy everything
on my wishlist. i want to decorate our home with my boyfriend. i want to sleep with him. i want to write vintage letters to him.
i want to have an old book collection of my own. i really really want to live a lot. this is why i don't want to die young.
i want to be so pretty. i want to do my second rhinoplasty with my first self-made money. i want to renew my lip filler.
i want to go everywhere in Istanbul with my boyfriend. i want us to find ourselves together. i want to change his life
in a good way. i want a warm welcoming home. i want a HOME, not a house. i really really love living. i want to buy every
dress, skirt, shirt i want. i want to be the best at everything, i want to graduate from university, i want to study psychology
i want to be the che guevera of psychology. i want to find a cure to personality disorders i want to dive deeper into
psychopatholy. i want to know python better, html5 better, i want my own desktop pc, i want my setup to be pink.
i want to play all the games i've always wanted to play, i wanna buy every game on steam. i want my own controller
i want my own ps5. i want to have ps hand computer. i really want to do a lot of things. i haven't lived.
im so young. im still a child. i just have rights. i hate to live in fear because of my father. i want to
be happy and live. thats all i want. i want to score so high in yks that i can study in bogazici. i really really have a
lot of dreams. i dont want to die. i want to live. i really really want to live. i have so much energy. im so young.
i like having my own digital diary and i coded it. its mine. truly i feel so proud of myself
well, i always wanted to code as a hobby. now i made a wish of mine true. i feel serene. i will develop my site as far as i can
i hope my boyfriend gets flabbergasted by my coding skills. no wix, no help, i coded it. i studied html5 and i did it.
i also have my own digital camera. i really feel like im truly being myself. i really feel so happy .
everything of this site is my choice. i downloaded and found the font, i found the pictures, i set the background
i found the background photo, i set the colors. im also coding what you're reading.
whatever, today we watched arrival with my delicate sweet boyfriend. it was so fucking good. im still thinking about it